Thursday, January 31, 2008

千千阙歌

徐徐回望,
曾属于彼此的晚上
红红仍是你,
赠我的心中艳阳
如流傻泪,
祈望可体恤兼见谅
明晨离别你,
路也许孤单得漫长
一瞬间,太多东西要讲
可惜即将在各一方
只好深深把这刻尽凝望

来日纵是千千阙歌飘于远方我路上
来日纵是千千晚星亮过今晚月亮
都比不起这宵美丽
亦绝不可使我更欣赏
ah..因你今晚共我唱

临行临别,
才顿感哀伤的漂亮
原来全是你,
令我的思忆漫长
何年何月,
才又可今宵一样
停留凝望里,
让眼睛讲彼此立场
当某天,雨点轻敲你窗
当风声吹乱你构想
可否抽空想这张旧模样

来日纵是千千阙歌飘于远方我路上
来日纵是千千晚星亮过今晚月亮
怎都比不起这宵美丽
亦绝不可使我更欣赏
ah..因今晚的我可共你唱
来日纵是千千阙歌飘于远方我路上
来日纵是千千晚星亮过今晚月亮
都比不起这宵美丽
都洗不清今晚我所思
因不知哪天再共你唱

Monday, January 28, 2008

The State of Africa

As I waited at Paddington Railway Station for my train to Cardiff en-route my return from Singapore, I went into WHSmith to browse the books and magazines (my favourite pasttime when I am waiting for flights or trains). A book entitled 'The State of Africa' written by Martin Meredith caught my eye, as I have always been interested in developmental issues across the world, as well as history and politics. I endeavoured to spend my first free weekend in Cardiff after the exams reading the book, and I have. It was a moving and sobering experience to just read the book, and I flipt page after page, finishing its 700 pages in 3 days. I believe I have never been so emotionally charged up reading a book before, and while that gives testimony to the writer's literary ability, I think more than anything, it left me amazed at 'the resilience which ordinary Africans confront their many adversities'.
The book chronologises the development of the African states through its 50 years of independance since the first few states attained self-goverment respectively from their British, French & Portugese colonial masters. Beginning with a brief introduction of how the continent of Africa was spilt up in the end of the 19th century Scramble of Africa by Western states to meet their own interests, the book goes into the individual struggles for independance by the various nationalist groups, before dwelving proper into issues after independance.
Many people in the world today have been campaigning for more foreign aid to be given to Africa, while many other people have also been insisting that aid will only be benefitial if there is proper governance in Africa. I also hold both opinions. However, after reading the book, then did I realise the massive complications and difficulties with which each proposition has to face.
The history of so many of the states, Ghana, Nigeria, Angola, Algeria, Ethiopia etcetc repeats a similar vicious cycle of 'opportunistic acts' disguised behind veils of religion, ethnicity, ideology. The nationalist successes only led to strongman dictatorships and idolization worship of people such as Nkrumah (Ghana), Selaissie (Ethiopia). Widespread repression, and more damagingly corruption was the result as the huge riches of natural resources of oil, diamond, gold all went into the pockets of the strongmen and their families. The next stage in most of the countries would then be the coups by the military to remove the strongmen who achieved independance. Yet, these military strongmen would only continue to govern in exactly the same way as those they had sought to remove (Amin in Uganda, Mobutu in Zaire).
Following this would be the breakup of full scale civil war when these military strongmen could no longer hold control over all the diversive factions in their states. This is where the picture got really bleak and almost hard to swallow. There are hundreds of cultural groups in Africa, with different ethnic linguo-cultures. Added to this is the division along the lines of religion with Muslims (especially in the North), Christians (a result of missionaries during the Colonial times) and the rural Africa religions. The states of Africa, divided along lines of Western interests paid scant regard to these ethnic divisions, therefor there were different major groups in each State and this would provide the setting for civil wars in countless states (prominently, Nigeria, Angola). Foreign interference during the Cold War period only led these wars to have higher casualty rates, become prolonged and cause more harm. Yet, the civil wars were much more complicated than just religious or ethnic divides. They were simply acts of individuals or groups who would use any opportunity and opening they saw to further their own interests. States would support rebel groups in other states, the US and France would support dictators, even extremist Muslims would help Africans against Muslim governments in some situations.
The book ends by describing the situations in the last 2 decades that I grew up having a rough idea of. The 1984 famine of Ethiopia, the Civil War in Somalia. The Genocide in Rwanda, Mandela's release from prison in S. Africa, Mugabe in Zimbabwe are significant examples. Reading the book sent shockwaves across me as I read about the acts of apartheid, the forceful evacuation of blacks from white towns, and only led me to truly marvel at Mandela's ability to forgive such acts. The planned genocide of the Tutsis by the Hutus, was equally disturbing. But more disturning was the fact that the French managed to support the Hutus in their refugee camps as the previous Hutu government had been friendly to them, or a US government refusing to accept that there had been genocide. The US support of Mobutu who was a clear dictator but anti-Soviet was also nothing short of hypocritical as far as their own democratic ideals were involved.
Staring at the facts listed at the end of the book, the picture is a really sad one. Do you know that 30 million Africans are infected with HIV?! 440 million Africans live on less than US$1 a day?! Given their original chests of gold and diamond, can you imagine the corruption and greed that has led to the situation today in which almost all the states are in debt?! The stark realisation that hit me was that the problems will not be solved by just foreign aid and simple foreign peacekeeping or monitoring. It is far far more complicated than that, requiring generations of education, common identification, understanding and eradication of corruption. This realisation only makes the achievement of China as a one-nation state all the more amazing, but China itself underwent a thousand years of sporadic wars since the Warring States to get to where it is today! With todays techonological and weapon advancement, hundreds of years of war would do no less but to wipe out the entire Africa.
As for me sitting far away in Wales, or Singapore, I guess I can only pray for the common African, that peace comes one day, and after that, a life of subsistence and sustainence. Compared to our desires of riches and repute, it is hard sometimes to realise that there are people that would be happy with much less. That is until reality gives us a hard, rude shock.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

On My English & General State of Communication

It is about 3 hours more to my final examination paper of the year, and till 2010 as well! In my boredom as I wait for the clock to tick down, I have decided to pen down some thoughts that floated through my mind as I was doing my previous paper. It has nothing to do with the content of the questions or how I think I did, but rather, my standard of English. As I was writing, I could not help but notice that my English was getting quite atrocious, my grammar was flying all over the place, and I was trying to camouflage bad spelling by writing in cursive. Yet, my main concern was not write in good English, but to convey my ideas on the paper. My sentences were long, punctuation was bad etcetc. If it were a report, I probably would have failed.

On reflection now though, I wonder why I couldnt be bothered with my English in the exam. I am not trying to make excuses though! But besides the lack of time, I think my main reason would be that I knew that the marker of my script, who is obviously well versed in the topic, would know what I was saying. This brings me to the purpose of language. Why were languages invented? It must have been for communication. And what is communication? Communication is the ability for two or parties to understand the intentions of each or one another. Moving on...

Last week, my Portugese teacher asked me if I had taken Portugese before, as she found my Portugese to be rather good for a beginner, especially someone whose basic language was Chinese. Obviously, she is quite mistaken as if anything at all, my first language would be English, which would explain my comparative ease at the pronounciation of the other Latin languages as compared to the Mainland Chinese. However, also important is my desire to communicate. Actually, thus far in life, I have attempted to learn Japanese, Thai, and now Portugese, I have tried to speak Hainanese, Cantonese, Hokkien, and maybe even Malay. However, none of these have I managed to do with any decency at all. That is probably because I am a slow learner, and without a chance to read and speak these languages, I am unable to improve at all. That is why, I am quite thankful for the strong foundation in English & Chinese my parents and aunts forced into me when I was young. Yet, despite my repeated failures, why do I continue to learn languages?

Not that I think its cool to be able to speak many languages! But because I hope I can communicte better with other people! It is with proper communication that we can empathize and view the opinions of others fully. Some concepts can never be translated correctly, a some words are non-existent in different languages. Therefore, I really am determined to get this Portugese well learnt, with all the grammar and vocabularly. Thereafter, maybe re-visit the other languages I attempted earlier!

Friday, January 18, 2008

相思风雨中

傍晚四点,
从朋友口中得知你已有了男朋友,
八年的虚梦,默然在我心里消失了。
我也没追问你现在开心吗,那有点无聊了。

六点,
朋友约我吃晚餐。
懵懂披上大衣,穿上皮鞋,
瓦,怎么外面那么冷?

意大利餐馆,曾经的最爱,
今天好像换了厨师。
细雨绵绵,
餐馆客户笑声传出。
静播的意大利音乐,
不知是谁唱的什么歌。
从前没注意过,乍听之下,
也真够牵忆伤感。
突然,想起了那首you look beautiful tonight.

回家的路上,
风吹得甚紧。
我想起了那么多年前,
同样的陌生,同样的无奈。
有点怜悯自己,那么的天真,
人本来就会成长吗!

回到家,打开email,
朋友send了你的近照给我,
原来你,
没什么变到。

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Winter Retreat

If you find the UK too cold, and Singapore too hot, then Genting will suit you just fine. Set admist forested mountains, and periodically submerged in a bed of clouds, the air is cool and wet, refreshing and invigorating. That is, until you step into the casino. The air inside is so polluted of cigarette smoke, only the greater evil of gambling can attract the millions of hopefuls to brave the smog.

It was my first trip to Malaysia onboard one of the newly furnished, highly advertised coaches. The coach comes intact with drinks, chairs with massage functions, and the ability to travel steadily at high speeds. I would pick it over any airplane anytime. I havent been to Malaysia in a while. The first impression I got, as we travelled across the highway across Johor, Malacca, Selangor into K.L, was that the roads were very well built and maintained. In KL itself, the roads were of equal if not better quality than those in Singapore, with much greenery and flora. However, the buildings tell a very different story. It is quite apparent that 'China-style' development has not hit Malaysia in a big way. I saw more than a few zinc houses, and old buildings. My biggest query was why the state used so much money to build a first-world roads system, but the local development had failed to catch on or make use of it. Did the roads bring the benefits to the people in terms of access and greater business opportunities? Perhaps much less than they should have. But that might not be a bad thing either, at least, Malaysia retained a rather distinct look.

Back to Genting. In the hotel, one of the programmes shown on the television was a documentary of how Tan Sri Lim Goh Tong built and developed Genting into the multi-million dollar business it now is today. I looked out of the window and thought to myself that he indeed had chosen a most wonderful place. However, if not for the casino, would it still be as popular. I doubt so. The theme park, the hotels, are all not well maintained, making it a second-rate resort at best. But yet, many locals and foreigners still flock to it. If you were to step into the casino, you would understand why. Everyone is there to gamble. From old aunties, to the smartly-dressed businessmen. I wondered how the new casinos in Singapore would affect Genting. I am sure Genting will retain its niche pool of visitors though, at least it still has the climate advantage over Singapore.

If one were to judge an activity by the number of people that participate in it, gambling would probably be a great thing. Especially 2-cent jackpot machines, it brings hope to so many, not unlike the 4D or Toto system in Singapore. However, I will not need to elaborate on the ills and harms of gambling, and the number of families and individuals it has torn apart. Sometimes I wonder, if there is any way, that individuals could derive the hope and anticipation they get from gambling, but be saved from the evils of addiction. I think its a balance. Too much hope is a bad thing, but having no hope is no better. But to make people understand and live by that I think, is more impossible than building a resort on top of a remote mountain.