Sunday, December 31, 2006

Happy New Year!

Here's wishing all of you a really beautiful 2007, made of magical moments & wonderful times, warmth & love. =p

cexiang, 1/1/07, 2.15 am , study.

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Sunday, December 24, 2006

On Christmas

This Christmas Eve is different. No more going to Pasir Ris Park Fishermens' Village for the Countdown. I remember in previous years, as I went to the park, I would avoid the crowds, and go into a quiet corner for solitude. There isn't a need for that this year. As the world wishes each other Merry Christmas, I was working on my Economics Coursework. The occasional sms greeting affording a minutes' rest.

It never is easy treating what used to be a special day as a normal one. But, I guess it will one day be special again.

Merry Christmas!

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Thursday, December 21, 2006

感触

过了良久，突然听到一把声音，风中说，“将军，战争早已结束了。该是时候做回王子了。”这时已满脸皱纹的将军听了，慢慢拿下盔甲，终于再次露出了熟悉的笑容。

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Sunday, December 03, 2006

On My Remembrance of the Early 90s


In the early 1990s ,I was a little, mischievous(around people I knew, where I was comfortable) but shy boy. (6- about 9 years old) At that time, my mum was working in Thong Hiap Holdings(owned by my grandfather, selling various branded watched like Rolex) along Bras Basah Road. I was registered for Chinese Speech & Drama Lessons every Saturday, near People's Park. Every week, after my lessons, my mum would accompany me in my uncle's Mercedes back to the Shop where I wound spend the rest of the afternoon. I was entertained by the staff showing me magic tricks (really juvenile ones which already thrilled me tremendously), or just running around "irritating" everyone. At that time, I was always curiously looking at everything around me in the car, the tall buildings, etc. Nothing failed to excite me, and I would give running commentaries of everything I saw, and everyone in the car would laugh. I think this period was how the me today, had roots in. Soon after, my speech and drama lessons ended, and my mum would retire to take care of us at home full-time.

Somehow, this song was very famous during that period. It also reminds me of the time when my Great-grandmother stayed with us, for about a month. My mum was extremely filial to this grandmother of hers, and it rubbed off me as well. We were watching television one night in the room with my grandmother, and it was the 1994 NKF Charity Show, and Jacky Cheung was the guest and this was the theme song for the event he performed.

The last events this song reminds me of, would be the Sundays spent at my Grandfather's place in Kwong Ave. It was 2 big bungalows with a swimming pool, jacuzzi & a KTV room. Soon after, all these were no more. But the memories, the sitting by the poolside, the playing basketball, the singing in the room. I think I am fortunate to have lived through it, more fortunate, to remember it with a smiling heart.

If in the end, we will lose everything we have, then when we lose it is not important. What is important, is that we lived, cherised & remembered.

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Saturday, December 02, 2006

回忆（一）：二十岁的闲辽

9月30日2005年，家。

‘九到五’的国民服役，让我在二十岁的这年，意外的空闲。年下旬更经看了‘雪狼湖’后，对天台的花圃产生了兴趣。每晚念经前，就擅自先去“探花”，施肥，浇水。无意间，又多了闲处。这时的心情，没了功课或成就的压力，多了一份时间，悠闲。

花儿很快地就开了。顿时，心胸也随着宽了。其实，现实中的家境正面临严重经济困难，但我似乎不太担心。我相信爸爸，相信命运。花儿开了，希望又多了一层。

我发现自己即闲着，却还是希望呆在家里无所事事，也不太愿出门见朋友，或做什么活动。心中有时也有些愧对朋友的感觉。真不知是家需要我，还是我需要家。有时候就请朋友来家里的天台，但朋友真正赴约的次数总算不多，路程是个障碍，朋友与我的兴致终究不一样。

所以，我闲着。在家里不可能只面对家人或花儿， 很多时间就花在睡觉上。或许该多看书，却没这个雅致。或许该买些戏剧看，却又太懒。或许该与家人多接触，自己却永远是被动的，对朋友如此，对家人也如此。只要知道全家安好，我就很满足。

或许因这样，我继续闲辽，孤单闲辽。但至少，少了人际关系，我的孤单，总是最清雅，悠闲的。

我想，这样的生活，其实也挺美好。却终究很难维持。但生命中，尤其在繁忙的都市，能有如此体会，我想，我还是幸运的。

[从今天回望的感想：原来有了这样的2005，才会有了这样的2006。人生难测。]

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Friday, December 01, 2006

My Memories (A Forward)

Unknown to almost all, I had a habit of writing my thoughts down since I was about 14 years old. I can still remember how it all started. I actually wanted to write a Philosophy, on what I felt Life was, and how we should lead it. (Yes, I was only 14!)I did manage to get a few pieces going. The next phase of writing was the attempt to compose classical Chinese Poems (inspired by the Jin Yong classics I was crazy over then). Thereafter, a whole sequence of love poems & songs, or rather, to reflect a lack of love, were written. These were the 3 main categories. The fourth was more random, these would be the occasional record of my feelings, as generated by special occasions(the new millenium), or special encounters in my life.

All these are kept in a little blue file, which is my companion, my memory, and most of all, my pride. Totaling more than 100 pages, I have decided to pick a few more pivotal ones and share them online.

An entertainter's life could be remembered through their songs and movies. For normal people like me, what else do I have but my pen. Presenting, my memories, 1999-2005.

[I will enclose my remarks as I look back on my writings from today's perpectives.]

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